Light Is The New Black
I often struggle with trying to figure out exactly what it is I want to do with my life. A lot of people will just go into an occupation for money or because they’re good at something – not because they actually enjoy it. A lot of people get a job and stay in that job for years and years just because they have become comfortable and don’t like change. I am in the retail world right now, but I know that there is something more out there for me (definitely outside of a retail store at least). I just have not discovered what it is yet exactly. So in the meantime, I will keep working hard and trying to move up in this field. One thing I am working on is not beating myself up about not knowing exactly what my life purpose is and not being where I want to be yet at the age of 25. We all have dreams, but the difference between those who make the dream happen and those that just continue to dream is that those that make the dream happen never give up.
This book that I read recently, Light is the New Black by Rebecca Campbell, really helped me. Of course I still get stressed out and get super confused and all that from time to time, but this book helped me learn that that is okay. Over the last year I have really started to learn who I am and love who I am. Color has been brought into my life. I feel more alive than I have ever felt. Or more awake I should say. My eyes are open. I am still sad quite often and still have a long way to go, but compared to where I was just a year ago...my life is so different, I am so different. I am learning. You really have to be stingy with your time and who you give your energy to. A big change in my life came when I cut toxic people out. When I did, it left room for new amazing people that have changed my life. It left room for ME to listen to ME. It is a journey we all have to take at some point in our lives. One thing to remember is that you should never compare your journey to someone else’s – things happen at different times, differently, for everyone. And it is never too late to get to know yourself. I have read many self help books over the last year to better myself and get to know myself more. This book’s mission is to get you on track to discovering what your calling is – what your purpose is – why you are here.
This book is the reason you are reading this right now! One day I was reading and something in the book really spoke to me. It was talking about how you shouldn’t wait until the conditions are perfect to do something you love or want to do. You shouldn’t wait for the approval of someone else to do something you love or want to do – something you feel passionate about, something that “lights you up”. You should just dive in. Right after I read that, I got online and created this blog.
I know that many people don’t even read my blog. I know that many people don’t even care. I know that many people would rather see a photo of me than read what I have to say. I know that there are many people that are way better photographers and writers than I am. I know that many people look at this blog and think that it is silly or boring. Even though all that may be true, what matters is that I am doing something that I enjoy. I am doing something that lights me up. This is for me. I don’t need anyone to tell me that my photos are good enough in order to post them. I don’t need to choose the best one out of four photos if I like all four. I didn’t wait until I got more experience with writing or with photography. I just dove in knowing that I would figure it out along the way.
“Follow what lights you up and you’ll light up the world.”
What does this mean? Well, what lights you up? For example, for me, I absolutely love going on adventures. I love going to new places, trying new foods, having flowers in my apartment, traveling, taking photos and spending time with the love in my life. Those are just some of the things that light me up. These things are so important to listen to. Do not ignore what lights you up. It lights you up for a reason. It’s like a little clue that you must follow. The book has you make a list of the things that light you up. Then it tells you to commit to doing at least one of those things every day. Imagine the possibilities. You aren’t going to just have an epiphany one day and know what it is you are meant to do on this earth. That’s crazy. Truth is – that is why most people get frustrated and want to give up. They expect their purpose to just pop into their head one day. That’s not how it works. This book helps you to understand that it will take time and it will take many changes of your mind to figure it out. And that’s okay! That is why it is important to follow what lights you up. Little by little things will start to become clearer.
There have been so many times where I’ve wanted to quit something – quit school, quit life, quit hoping for love, quit loving, quit writing, quit my job, quit searching for a bigger and better job and just accept what I have. I do not quit though. I have been depressed, crying on the floor, sick to my stomach and numb many times in my life. I do not give up though. Why? I believe that everything happens for a reason, and I believe that if I keep thinking big and not giving up – something amazing is going to happen for me one day. Maybe that’s silly of me, maybe that’s naïve; but that is what I believe, and that is what keeps me going.
So I am going to keep writing, and I am going to keep blogging whenever I feel inspired. I am going to keep taking photos of my food at a million different angles. I am going to keep selling everything I own just to book a trip to a foreign land. I am going to keep doing what lights me up. And one day – I’ll light up the world. One day – I will have the job of my dreams. One day – I will look back at everything I have been through and know that it was all to get me to that moment.
You will too. You just have to love yourself, follow what lights you up and never stay down for long.
For those of you that do read and do believe in me – I thank you, and I promise that over time, my posts will get better. As I grow and become better, so will everything that I share with you. For those of you that have been such a light in my life – you mean more than you know.